I ain'nt scared

Have you ever ask yourself this , "look in the mirror , you will see yourself . Look deeper inside and you see alot of whys . What are the whys ? let me elaborate.

Why am i saying such things like as if this is a chinese drama or an indian bollywood film or even a malay dramatic series ?

Why am i always getting angry ?
Why do i put things in the internet but never show it in real life ?
Why do i even say this type of bullshits like as if i'm emotic ?
Why do i see my loved ones say such things in the internet and i can feel the pain , but didnt tell me anything when we meet ?
Why do i dare to say but don't dare to do ?
Why am i being a jerk sometime ?
Why can't i control my anger ?
Why do i sometimes act as if nothing happen when it eventually is the best solution ?
Why do i say such personal questions like what happen and the person will remain quiet?
Why do i ask but nobody answers?
Why can't my love ones tell me his/her problems just so that they can let it out ?
Why do my loved ones find it hard to tell me things when i can tell them my things and wont really feel weird because i know i can trust them ?
Why do people don't trust me at all ?
Why can't i learn to give up but keep persevering ?
Why do people ask me things then afterthat they will say ouh okays?
WHY DO I EVEN FEEL LIKE CRYING WHEN WRITING THIS ??!

This are my whys .

Anyways today had maths paper and didnt find it that hard ah . Still sure fail .
Now i'm stucked at home with the WHYS on my mind and i don't have school tomorrow . Who can accompany me do anything uh ? Aliff all ask me stay at home . I Dont feel like doing that . I had enough rest .

"If i fall off a lot of loss and problems but didnt die , in the end , it will make me stronger "

And i ain'nt scared of reality , face it to show that i am what i am