No longer what i use to be

Im no longer myself now . I cant do what i use to do . I cant say what i use to say . I'm no man . Im sorry for making you sad! i wanna kkeep my promise! i cant seem to talk to you normally . i know you hate me ! . im sorry ! i need my friends! i will dance it all out ! take more videos ! edit it ! make myself better ! i dun wan think to much alrdy ! i wan this to end!